His touch almost burns, it's so full of caring concern and he's just. He's Eiji and he's stupid and he loves me and it's scary because I don't know what I need or what I feel or even if I deserve to be alive.

I gave my existence up for him. I remember asking him to live before everything went black, yelling at him to not be stupid and save his sorry self.

I also smiled at Hina, that much I remember.

I look over my shoulder at him, I'm sure my eyes are red and dry and I must look a mess. "I don't... I don't know..."