I swallow hard, trying to fight down all these nerves that are fighting for my attention.

"If you're sure," I take a steadying breath, then pull back just far enough to meet his eyes. "I want you to feel good too."

I bite my lip and look down, my cheeks still hot. "Will you, um, will you... direct things?"

I'm not sure I'm expressing my wants properly. Mostly I just want him over me, covering me. I don't so much care who's inside who, I just want to be able to look up at him and know I'm safe with him.