I could almost be content just like this, nothing between us, skin on skin.

But there's a sweet slow burn at the base of my spine, and I want to do this for him, I want to help him feel better. He can't speak to me about it. The least I can do is make him feel loved and wanted.

I lean in to breathe into his ear, "Watch. Help if you want," then I suck his earlobe briefly, wetly, and move back onto the bed.

Eyes on his, I coat a finger liberally and start working it into myself.