I curl against Eiji once he settles back down and draws me close, tucking myself in against his chest, my ear pressed to the center. His heart is beating a little faster than before, I'm sure mine is too, but it's still steady. Still solid.

"I'm sorry," my voice is raw, but at least I'm not crying anymore, though I'm sure there are still tears on my face. I'm not sure what I'm apologizing for. Maybe everything. Every time he got hurt because of me, every time I put him in danger or couldn't get him out of danger. For crying. For not being able to just talk to him sometimes. For leaving him. For needing him so badly.

For everything.