"You deserve better than that." I point out. I understood him, or I tried to.
I also used him. I am very aware of that. I'd apologize, but I think maybe it's too late for that.
My hands are drawn down to his hand, and without thinking about it, I take it in mine and just hold on for a second. A good thing I have all this experience with my family, because I want him to know this. I want him to know that I care about him. More than I care about the others, as awful as that might sound. Yeah, I was using him, but damn it, he was still on my side. He was on my side, and I may have stabbed a lot of people in the back, and I may have been rewarded for that behavior with a well-deserved stab in the front, but I never betrayed him. Never ever.
"I'll tell you where I live, okay? And you can come over whenever you want. I have a kitten, do you want to meet him? I... I named him Yummy. And that's kind of weird, and my parents don't really get it, but we get it, right?"
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I also used him. I am very aware of that. I'd apologize, but I think maybe it's too late for that.
My hands are drawn down to his hand, and without thinking about it, I take it in mine and just hold on for a second. A good thing I have all this experience with my family, because I want him to know this. I want him to know that I care about him. More than I care about the others, as awful as that might sound. Yeah, I was using him, but damn it, he was still on my side. He was on my side, and I may have stabbed a lot of people in the back, and I may have been rewarded for that behavior with a well-deserved stab in the front, but I never betrayed him. Never ever.
"I'll tell you where I live, okay? And you can come over whenever you want. I have a kitten, do you want to meet him? I... I named him Yummy. And that's kind of weird, and my parents don't really get it, but we get it, right?"