I take a heavy gulp of my drink, after nudging the stick of the ice pop out of the way with my nose. It's not exactly a pleasant combination of flavors, but it'll do for now.

I just want to be numb. I want to not worry anymore, not have all these thoughts and emotions and feelings. Not feel like the world is closing in around me. Like my life is spinning out of my control.

Not fear for Eiji's life. Not feel like I don't have a purpose anymore.

"I wish I was still Greeed." I mutter into my cup.