He's clinging to the bear like it's oxygen, and his eyes aren't focusing. How much did he have?!
He's pulling away from me, and I don't know the cause. I could mess around trying to interpret his actions, I could assume it's one thing or another, but it's easier just to say straight out what I don't know. Easier to put my heart on the line, as it always is, with him. Open to him. Always him.
Always his.
"If you're pulling away from me to get comfortable, that's okay," I say softly. I begin helping him settle into the bed, moving the pillow so it supports his neck properly, worming the blanket out from under him.
But then I get in behind him, and I carefully place an arm over him, carefully fit myself around him. I don't want to pull him closer to me. He's sick, it wouldn't be fair. "But if you're pulling away because you have some idiotic idea that you're not worthy of me, then I won't allow it, Ankh." I press my lips gently to the skin behind his ear. "I love you. You'll have to push me away a lot more convincingly than that, and even then, I'll still want you. I'll still need you. I'll only give you a short break before I'm back talking to you again, caring about you, wanting your opinion, wanting you to be happy."
I put my head back on the pillow, behind his. "I love you."
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He's pulling away from me, and I don't know the cause. I could mess around trying to interpret his actions, I could assume it's one thing or another, but it's easier just to say straight out what I don't know. Easier to put my heart on the line, as it always is, with him. Open to him. Always him.
Always his.
"If you're pulling away from me to get comfortable, that's okay," I say softly. I begin helping him settle into the bed, moving the pillow so it supports his neck properly, worming the blanket out from under him.
But then I get in behind him, and I carefully place an arm over him, carefully fit myself around him. I don't want to pull him closer to me. He's sick, it wouldn't be fair. "But if you're pulling away because you have some idiotic idea that you're not worthy of me, then I won't allow it, Ankh." I press my lips gently to the skin behind his ear. "I love you. You'll have to push me away a lot more convincingly than that, and even then, I'll still want you. I'll still need you. I'll only give you a short break before I'm back talking to you again, caring about you, wanting your opinion, wanting you to be happy."
I put my head back on the pillow, behind his. "I love you."