He's off on a tangent, misunderstanding what I meant about the key -- my point was that he could leave at any time as soon as I showed him the key, but without his consent I couldn't have left, since I couldn't open its box. Still can't.
But the key's far from the important part when he challenges my wording, and the lump in my throat is hard to talk around. My voice is strained as I try.
"That's not my decision to make, Gotou-chan," I say, and I make sure I put the honorific on there, I make sure that I'm careful with his name, because I won't be careless with his name in my mouth, even if it's not the name I want to call him by. Because that desire isn't important, not in comparison to the importance of the man himself.
"I don't want to die with any regrets, and I would have regretted not being honest with you. You're not obligated to anything on my account."
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Well, then it does.
He's off on a tangent, misunderstanding what I meant about the key -- my point was that he could leave at any time as soon as I showed him the key, but without his consent I couldn't have left, since I couldn't open its box. Still can't.
But the key's far from the important part when he challenges my wording, and the lump in my throat is hard to talk around. My voice is strained as I try.
"That's not my decision to make, Gotou-chan," I say, and I make sure I put the honorific on there, I make sure that I'm careful with his name, because I won't be careless with his name in my mouth, even if it's not the name I want to call him by. Because that desire isn't important, not in comparison to the importance of the man himself.
"I don't want to die with any regrets, and I would have regretted not being honest with you. You're not obligated to anything on my account."