Now he's laughing at me, but I don't think he means it mean like. I think it's supposed to be a 'laughing with' kind of laugh but I don't feel like laughing much.

I feel like kissing him.

So I do, damn it. I lean down, and I put one hand at his waist and I grab the back of his neck with the other and I kiss him, a little harder than the last two times, a bit more forceful more...

Needy?

And it's not until then that I realize he just called me Kanji, no -kun, for the first time.

Damn.