Another swallow, and a nod of my head. "O-okay then," I say, and my deathgrip on the present relaxes somewhat. I only barely know Jin-san, but I have a feeling that if he was forcing himself, it would be a little easier to see. Maybe not as easy to see through as I am, though.

"How is it?" I find myself asking suddenly, not even sure where the question is coming from. "Being a Buster?"