I'm not really surprised that he knows. Of course he does. I've never really been able to keep secrets from him, he knows all of my tells. Turnabout is fair play, I know all of his tells too. We'd be a force to be reckoned with playing team poker...

I shake my head and look up at him and take a shaky breath that does nothing, especially not down here. It's only for my own benefit.

"I want to know what it feels like." I say softly, and my voice cracks a little at the end. "Zut." I mutter, mostly to myself, looking away.