I want to bow my head, want to turn away, as he begins walking back to Cous Coussier, but I don't. I don't want to make this harder on him.
He turns and stares at me, snaps at me.
My hand rises in reflexive protest. I know he's not doing this because he wants me to try to stop him, but why doesn't he realise that if I do try to stop him, that'd be the biggest jerk move I could make?
"Of course I want you to stay," I say, forcing my voice to stay quiet. I don't want to get into an argument about this with him. "Of course I do, Ankh. But if you need to go, if that's what you really need, how could I be happy with you staying here instead? How could I be happy knowing that you need to take a break and you're not DOING so? That wouldn't meet my needs or my wants. Part of being human is acknowledging that there aren't any easy answers sometimes!"
I take a deep breath, and unclench my hands. I hadn't even realised they'd formed fists in the first place. "Ideally, I want you with me, and happy. But I can wait to have both of those together."
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He turns and stares at me, snaps at me.
My hand rises in reflexive protest. I know he's not doing this because he wants me to try to stop him, but why doesn't he realise that if I do try to stop him, that'd be the biggest jerk move I could make?
"Of course I want you to stay," I say, forcing my voice to stay quiet. I don't want to get into an argument about this with him. "Of course I do, Ankh. But if you need to go, if that's what you really need, how could I be happy with you staying here instead? How could I be happy knowing that you need to take a break and you're not DOING so? That wouldn't meet my needs or my wants. Part of being human is acknowledging that there aren't any easy answers sometimes!"
I take a deep breath, and unclench my hands. I hadn't even realised they'd formed fists in the first place. "Ideally, I want you with me, and happy. But I can wait to have both of those together."