Christmas "Meme"

[snakewithbaggage]

Jingle Bells! Jingle Bells!
Suzu ga naru
Suzu no rizumu ni hikari no wa ga mau
Jingle Bells! Jingle Bells!
Suzu ga naru
Mori ni hayashi ni hibikinagara

Welcome to the Dinohouse Christmas "meme"! This is going to work a bit differently from most memes, but still free free to do what you want here!

The idea:
Following this post I will be making an assortment of Universe/Location "thread" comments. These will define the specific scene and universe being worked in. Comments by applicable characters will follow under that comment.

Example:
Mushverse; Shiba Mansion; open to Shinkengers

Comments following that would all be set in the Mushverse universe, be by any Shinkengers that want to participate, and take place at the Shiba Mansion Christmas party. Think of it sort of like every "top level" comment is its own post to the community.

Following that example, if your desired AU/Canon/etc isn't there, feel free to make a "thread" for it! Say there's already a Mushverse Go-busters "thread", and you want to do something in Aibouverse, or something more canon, maybe just between two characters? Make one!

Comments following the "thread" headings can be group setting free for all, or between individuals. Say it's a canon GokaiGalleon party, and Gai and Luka want to go off alone, or are on their way to the Galleon together? Their thread can be a separate second level comment thread beneath the main Canon Gokaiger thread.

I know that's a lot of information/qualifiers, but don't let it make you nervous to post, "rules" are fluid, and mainly set for added organization.

HAVE FUN. And enjoy the season!

Comments

[hinooo]

"You think I don't need you-?" I choke out, but my voice cracks and I have to shut up before I dissolve into tears.

I press the heels of my hands into my eyes, press hard, until I'm seeing stars, then let my hands drop.

He can't even look at me. Not properly.

"Of course I need you. I always did. Not just because of the medals." I try to keep my voice calm, but I half want to cry, half want to grab him and shake him and demand to know why I'm always the 'idiot'.

"But I'm not about to grab you and make you stay close to me." I take a step, but I don't touch him. "I need you whole. I need you happy. And I'll do anything required that help you feel happy, to help you feel whole, even if that means you're not physically with me. Don't you get it? I don't want you here with me if you're longing for something else. Even if it ripped my stupid heart out, I'd prefer you on the other side of the world, but happy."

[groundedbird]

I stay still for a moment, his words ringing in my ears.

He's moved closer, and I reach across the small distance between us to take his hand. It feels just as it always does. Warm and safe.

It feels like home.

I give his hand a squeeze, and look at him properly.

"You are the most important thing in my world." My voice has softened, my anger faded. "But I can't keep you in the position of my entire world. It's not healthy. Not for me, and not for you. I'll just keep hurting you if I do."

I sigh, and bring my free hand up to scratch at my scalp, where my braid used to always be. "I need to be a whole person. I need to find things to fulfill me beyond just the bond I share with you."

[hinooo]

He takes my hand. I'm quivering, still poised waiting for his reaction, for him to yell, scream, run off, be dreadfully calm and restrained again, grab me and kiss me, shove me, punch me...anything.

But he's calm, and seems a little less like he's holding himself horribly still inside for fear he'll break.

"I need to do that, too," I say softly, marvelling at the feel of his fingers in mine. "I'm not good at this, Ankh. But this is why I support you taking more time. If you need it, you should have it. What kind of love would I be if I tried to stop you having what you need?"

[groundedbird]

"I know," I sigh, and give his hand a squeeze. "I just want you to be willing to reach out and grab the things you want. To fight for the things that are important to you, not just for other people."

I tug him closer, turning so that we're standing face to face, and then wrapping my arms around him, over and around his shoulder, the other around his wait. I hug him tightly, my face pressed against his neck, nose tucked up beneath his ear.

I breathe in his scent, and it mingles with the smells of winter. I sway a little as I hug him, and sigh.

"I won't leave." I can't leave him, and I don't really want to. "But I am going to find somewhere to work that's not the restaurant. Find my own niche in the world. Find some times where I can be just me."

[hinooo]

I....I know he's right, but the things that are important to other people are important to me, too, for them. It's not simple.

It's never simple.

"All right," I say softly. "I can help you get a job, then I'll leave you alone."

The only simple thing is that I'm in his arms, and he's in mine, and I don't want to let him go.

I do, though.

[groundedbird]

Reluctantly I stop slinging to him, though I keep mt arms around him, loosely. I'm not really holding him at arms length, just pulling back enough to look at his face.

"We're both kind of a mess sometimes." I'm speaking without thinking ahead, just saying the words as the come to the surface. They're true enough though, and I don't regret saying them.

I sigh, and shiver slightly, suddenly very aware of the cold.

"Let's go home."