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I know I'm supposed to be sleeping. That's what the parents think I'm doing, and that's probably what I should be doing.
But honestly, I'm scared of the inside of my own head. I don't want to have the dream again, not tonight, not knowing that there's a very real possibility it's not even a dream, but a memory. A memory of, what? Don with a gun and a stranger who calls himself Captain Marvelous in a red coat, and two girls that I don't know, and someone dying for me, and me, and we're all fighting. With weapons, real weapons. And it might be real, or it might have been real, or it might have actually happened.
I don't want that.
I don't usually sneak out of the house, but this is one night that I kind of think maybe I need to.
At first I'm not sure where I'm going. I'm just taking a walk through the nighttime and appreciating it, and looking up towards the moon and considering breaking into the school so I can get to Rabbit Hutch, and that's when I figure it out, but almost before I do I've got my phone out and I'm texting JK asking where he is.
But honestly, I'm scared of the inside of my own head. I don't want to have the dream again, not tonight, not knowing that there's a very real possibility it's not even a dream, but a memory. A memory of, what? Don with a gun and a stranger who calls himself Captain Marvelous in a red coat, and two girls that I don't know, and someone dying for me, and me, and we're all fighting. With weapons, real weapons. And it might be real, or it might have been real, or it might have actually happened.
I don't want that.
I don't usually sneak out of the house, but this is one night that I kind of think maybe I need to.
At first I'm not sure where I'm going. I'm just taking a walk through the nighttime and appreciating it, and looking up towards the moon and considering breaking into the school so I can get to Rabbit Hutch, and that's when I figure it out, but almost before I do I've got my phone out and I'm texting JK asking where he is.