"Don't apologize for wanting to follow the customs of your homeworld," I smile softly at him, hopefully reassuring him that I am still okay will following all the correct rituals and steps that are needed. "Trust me, when we get further down the road, there are quite a few customs I'll need to keep to as well."
He mentions children. Ah, that again.
"Ad," I give his hand another squeeze, trying to keep my voice even and steady, so he knows I'm being honest and not just telling him what he wants to here. "I was raised to want a big family, I was brought up to want lots of children. Laughter spilling out of every room of a home, large family meals, raising children with someone who wanted those things just as much as I did."
I swallow hard, it's still difficult to think too much about my homeworld, to remember the large family I grew up with. All my brothers and sisters... I hope they're doing well, I hope we made their world better for them.
"But I had to push those dreams aside for bigger ones. Defeating the Neo Descal, stopping their ancestors from taking over Earth... When I volunteered for that mission I knew my life was going down a different path."
I bring Ad's hand up so that I can kiss the back of it, then look back at his face. "I don't have any regrets, Ad. Not about volunteering, not about falling in love with you. I don't need children to feel fulfilled."
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Date: 2012-07-01 01:58 am (UTC)He mentions children. Ah, that again.
"Ad," I give his hand another squeeze, trying to keep my voice even and steady, so he knows I'm being honest and not just telling him what he wants to here. "I was raised to want a big family, I was brought up to want lots of children. Laughter spilling out of every room of a home, large family meals, raising children with someone who wanted those things just as much as I did."
I swallow hard, it's still difficult to think too much about my homeworld, to remember the large family I grew up with. All my brothers and sisters... I hope they're doing well, I hope we made their world better for them.
"But I had to push those dreams aside for bigger ones. Defeating the Neo Descal, stopping their ancestors from taking over Earth... When I volunteered for that mission I knew my life was going down a different path."
I bring Ad's hand up so that I can kiss the back of it, then look back at his face. "I don't have any regrets, Ad. Not about volunteering, not about falling in love with you. I don't need children to feel fulfilled."