"You can scold me about that, if you want to," I reassure him, carefully adjusting a corner of the pillow that's folded funny under his cheek. He probably isn't noticing it right now, but it might not be comfortable to sleep on.
My knuckle brushes his cheek lightly, and I have to smile sadly, his skin so warm and smooth, barely shadowed with beard growth even at this late hour. I shouldn't enjoy such a little wisp of his warmth so deeply, and I know I'm not meant to; I don't regret telling him, and I feel lucky that he hasn't chosen to hate me for feeling that way toward him.
I don't know what the morning will bring, though.
"I would have let you out if you told me to, Gotou," I tell him softly, shifting the lay of my hips to something a little more comfortable, maintaining a hefty distance between his body and mine throughout. My cargo pants aren't exactly comfortable sleepwear, but I've dealt with far worse. I just want to make sure I'm as comfortable as I can be in falling asleep, so that I don't seek out greater comfort, or closeness, in my sleep.
"I had that key prepared so that you wouldn't be trapped with me. That I had to push myself to such an extreme just to be honest with you...
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Date: 2012-10-03 10:48 pm (UTC)"You can scold me about that, if you want to," I reassure him, carefully adjusting a corner of the pillow that's folded funny under his cheek. He probably isn't noticing it right now, but it might not be comfortable to sleep on.
My knuckle brushes his cheek lightly, and I have to smile sadly, his skin so warm and smooth, barely shadowed with beard growth even at this late hour. I shouldn't enjoy such a little wisp of his warmth so deeply, and I know I'm not meant to; I don't regret telling him, and I feel lucky that he hasn't chosen to hate me for feeling that way toward him.
I don't know what the morning will bring, though.
"I would have let you out if you told me to, Gotou," I tell him softly, shifting the lay of my hips to something a little more comfortable, maintaining a hefty distance between his body and mine throughout. My cargo pants aren't exactly comfortable sleepwear, but I've dealt with far worse. I just want to make sure I'm as comfortable as I can be in falling asleep, so that I don't seek out greater comfort, or closeness, in my sleep.
"I had that key prepared so that you wouldn't be trapped with me. That I had to push myself to such an extreme just to be honest with you...
"I am sorry I wasn't braver, aibou."