he'll never look at me the same way, he'll start to think of me as a child, he might not want to touch me, what happens in the future, what happens right now
-none of those were anywhere near the word he uses just then, and I shake my head even though he can't see it.
"Non, non." I assure him softly, sure that the technology will carry my voice clearly to him anyway. "Not that, never that..."
I pause and try to put my thoughts into a more cohesive order.
"I was frightened that you might be... upset. That you didn't know. That I never told you... couldn't tell you."
I swallow, hard, though it doesn't do anything for me, really. It still seems right.
"I was worried about what you would think. How you might view me differently, knowing..."
Another pause, another little sigh, this one where he can here. "I was worried about what this could mean for the future."
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Date: 2012-12-19 10:28 am (UTC)he'll never look at me the same way, he'll start to think of me as a child, he might not want to touch me, what happens in the future, what happens right now
-none of those were anywhere near the word he uses just then, and I shake my head even though he can't see it.
"Non, non." I assure him softly, sure that the technology will carry my voice clearly to him anyway. "Not that, never that..."
I pause and try to put my thoughts into a more cohesive order.
"I was frightened that you might be... upset. That you didn't know. That I never told you... couldn't tell you."
I swallow, hard, though it doesn't do anything for me, really. It still seems right.
"I was worried about what you would think. How you might view me differently, knowing..."
Another pause, another little sigh, this one where he can here. "I was worried about what this could mean for the future."