open to anyone <3

[cookscleanskicksass]

[fast asleep head down on the table, cuddling a struggling Navi]

Comments

[cookscleanskicksass]

[swallows, uncomfortably close to crying]

[blueondeck]

... ? Are you upset?

[You have too many emotions. How do I deal?]

[cookscleanskicksass]

[basically all I want is to cook and clean for you guys, along with Gai, and fix stuff]

[I didn't mind fighting, but everything else sucks]

[thickly] I'm fine.

[blueondeck]

You're not fine.

[Not looking at you, but I can definitely tell by your body language that you are not fine at all.

[cookscleanskicksass]

[gives up]

It's just nice when you're nice to me.

Not that you're ever mean to me.

[blueondeck]

So what do you mean?

[Because that didn't make much sense to him.]

[cookscleanskicksass]

[it doesn't make that much sense to me either]
[so many feels :(]
[I love that you're still sitting here with me trying to understand]

Um. I suppose... if everyone just left, I'd be sad but I'd get over it, but when you're nice to me it makes me think about how much I'll miss you. You all.

[blueondeck]

If you keep thinking about what will happen when it all ends, you'll waste the time getting there.

[I have not much else to do but let you lean here and listen to what you're saying.]

[cookscleanskicksass]

[you're being very patient even for you]

You're saying take the short-term view?

[blueondeck]

I'm taking the pirate view. I'm not worrying about anything that's not in front of me.

[cookscleanskicksass]

...you can do that?

[blueondeck]

You can too.

[cookscleanskicksass]

I -- I don't know if I can.

[blueondeck]

You can.

[cookscleanskicksass]

You have too much faith in me.

[blueondeck]

You're a pirate, aren't you?

[cookscleanskicksass]

Not always a very good one!

[blueondeck]

I don't want to think of you not being around yet.

[cookscleanskicksass]

[whimper]

I don't want to think of that either. You're right.

[blueondeck]

. . . You're being more cuddly than usual.

[so is he, but that's not the point]

[cookscleanskicksass]

I don't know what you mean.



[promptly snuggling into you harder]

[blueondeck]

. . .

[That would be exactly what he means.]

Hakase.

[cookscleanskicksass]

[I am not letting go not ever I will love you and squeeze you and call you George Joe]

J-Joe?

[blueondeck]

[Oh no, I'll stare at you and wait for you to explain the need for so much snuggling]

[cookscleanskicksass]

[stares back hopefully]
[for about a millisecond, now watch me fold like a chair]

I just don't want things to change. I know it's stupid.