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dinohouseThe Princess is still staying at the house, I'm not entirely sure why, but it's left me feeling decidedly unwelcome.
Not anything she's done, of course. If my (admittedly not entirely appropriate) dreams are anything to go on, I doubt she's capable of making anyone feel like that.
Okay, I know that dreams are just dreams, and she's been in mine an excessive amount lately, considering I've just met her, hardly spoken to her, and have spent approximately 95% of her time here outside in the gardens.
It's not her, though. And it's not her kuroko either, they're just as respectful and kind as the group I'm getting used to, though her's are a lot more straight laced, so to speak, and absolutely refuse to let me help out with things they're doing the way our kuroko do.
...Our kuroko, as if I am anywhere near a samurai, or even a proper member of the household. I'm more and more aware every day that I'm still just kind of a long-term guest in the house. Accepted as family, sort of, but I can tell nearly everyone thinks of me as a civilian, which I guess is exactly what I am.
But I don't want to be a burden, and I definitely don't like getting serious glares from that Tanba guy every time I come around a corner, so the gardens it is.
Not anything she's done, of course. If my (admittedly not entirely appropriate) dreams are anything to go on, I doubt she's capable of making anyone feel like that.
Okay, I know that dreams are just dreams, and she's been in mine an excessive amount lately, considering I've just met her, hardly spoken to her, and have spent approximately 95% of her time here outside in the gardens.
It's not her, though. And it's not her kuroko either, they're just as respectful and kind as the group I'm getting used to, though her's are a lot more straight laced, so to speak, and absolutely refuse to let me help out with things they're doing the way our kuroko do.
...Our kuroko, as if I am anywhere near a samurai, or even a proper member of the household. I'm more and more aware every day that I'm still just kind of a long-term guest in the house. Accepted as family, sort of, but I can tell nearly everyone thinks of me as a civilian, which I guess is exactly what I am.
But I don't want to be a burden, and I definitely don't like getting serious glares from that Tanba guy every time I come around a corner, so the gardens it is.
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Date: 2012-11-20 12:10 pm (UTC)"I... don't think that's how careers work, Kotoha-chan."
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Date: 2012-11-21 09:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-11-22 02:15 am (UTC)"I don't know, I guess it's something to think about. I just kind of do it for fun, though. Or out of habit."