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I yawn, and turn the page. It's not that late, really. I shouldn't be tired. But the house is unusually quiet and I'm finding it incredibly hard to focus on these reports.
Oh, well. I sip my coffee, then pick up my red pen again and make myself concentrate.
Oh, well. I sip my coffee, then pick up my red pen again and make myself concentrate.
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Date: 2012-07-27 07:50 am (UTC)I'm starting to get angry.
I've been playing with the little blue and black figurine from Marvelous for at least an hour now. Flipping it open to examine the silvery key shape, flipping it shut again to look at the suit.
It's too much. It's not fair.
I head downstairs, with every intent of simply leaving the house. But Jou is sitting at the table with a pile of reports, and I have to know something right then, while I have him and the memories are clear.
"Who's Gou?"
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Date: 2012-07-27 07:56 am (UTC)Why's he asking about Gou?
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Date: 2012-07-27 08:02 am (UTC)I probably wasn't supposed to overhear Tetsuya's conversation, but it's too late now.
"Yeah. You... you've never mentioned him before. But he's a friend of yours, right?" My fingers tighten around the little Key in my hand. "From then. When you were Livemen. Properly, I mean. Before these happened." I hold the Key up, and I know Jou has one too, somewhere in the house. Yuusuke and Megumi too. I've seen Junichi and Tetsuya show theirs to Gai. Another thing Jou never told me.
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Date: 2012-07-27 08:06 am (UTC)He's holding his key, and he looks incredibly tense. "Before, during, and after, yeah," I say tentatively. "Joe, is everything okay? What's this about?"
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Date: 2012-07-27 08:09 am (UTC)"Like when we met before." I tighten my fingers around the Key again. "About how your friends... your friends all died. Like Sid-sempai had to die."
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Date: 2012-07-27 08:15 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-27 08:17 am (UTC)"No." I think I might be shaking, I'm not sure. "But you didn't tell me that. You were telling me that I couldn't save my friend instead."
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Date: 2012-07-27 04:05 pm (UTC)He's mad too. I don't care. I want answers, and no one will give them to me. "What about these?" I hold the Key up again. "You have one too, I know you do. Why'd you never tell me about them? Not even after I got this." I shake the little blue one at him, the one that I know is mine, or at least is supposed to be. "Why won't anyone tell me anything, Jou?"
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Date: 2012-07-28 12:38 am (UTC)"I don't -- I don't remember everything about your friend, Joe. I don't remember everything I did. But I remember the results. Too much of him was gone."
I blink at his key. "How exactly is not telling you about that, the same as not telling you anything? You know I can transform. You've seen me!"
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Date: 2012-07-28 04:19 am (UTC)"How do you know? How did you know anything about him at all? Some schematics on a piece of alien technology you might not have even understood completely?"
I turn away, hanging my head, trying to breathe. "I meant the Key. You need one of these to do it, don't you? You didn't used to, but you do now, and it has something to do with my past, my real past. And I didn't know. I know nothing."
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Date: 2012-07-28 04:31 am (UTC)I take a step to him, and lift a hand to put it on his shoulder. But I don't quite connect. I don't think he'd appreciate it right now. "I didn't even remember until recently. You know that. My memories aren't clear. Up till not that long ago I still thought you'd come to us from a foster agency. Joe... don't you trust me at all?"
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Date: 2012-07-28 04:34 am (UTC)He comes up behind me, too quickly, and I spin around with an arm up to block a strike that I never should have even conceived of happening. Why am I acting this way?
Doesn't matter. I thought he was going to hit me, so I reacted. I knock his arm away and stare into his eyes.
"I don't know who I'm supposed to trust anymore. My parents, whose memories are no better than mine? My supposed pirate crew who want to take me away? Who should I trust, Jou? Who knows anything anymore?"
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Date: 2012-07-29 09:08 am (UTC)And then I see Jou's face.
"Jou! What happened? Where's Joe?"
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Date: 2012-07-29 09:19 am (UTC)Dammit.
"Megumi," I say frantically, taking her by the shoulders. "I tried calling. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
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Date: 2012-07-29 09:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-29 09:56 am (UTC)"They're fine," I say hastily. "Joe and I... had a fight. He was so lost, Megumi, and I couldn't pull him back. He ran off, and I didn't go after him fast enough."
Good goddamn job, me.
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Date: 2012-07-29 10:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-29 10:46 am (UTC)I take a shaky breath. I only came back because I ran out of places to look. "I -- I don't know what to do."
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Date: 2012-07-29 01:08 pm (UTC)Yuusuke should stay at home, I think.
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Date: 2012-07-29 02:09 pm (UTC)I can't be more useless than Yuusuke.
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Date: 2012-07-29 02:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-07-29 02:47 pm (UTC)Come on, come on, pick up.
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