My entire body shakes, trembles, convulses. I scrape at the floor with my nails, hard enough to burn, maybe hard enough to make one or two of my fingertips bleed. I can't tell.
I'm breaking down, everything I've been feelings coming to a sharp reality inside me. I don't know who I am, what I am. Not beyond Eiji, and even that is hard to define.
I love him. I told him that when he... almost died.
He almost died.
I love him, but I don't know who I am. What I can be for him. I don't know my place anymore. I can't use him to find medals, there are no more medals to find. I can't fight beside him, I am limited by human strength now.
I love him, my love for him wakes me up at night sometimes, with the fierceness of my beating heart. I love him, but there is still this gaping hole inside me.
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Date: 2012-09-29 08:45 am (UTC)I'm breaking down, everything I've been feelings coming to a sharp reality inside me. I don't know who I am, what I am. Not beyond Eiji, and even that is hard to define.
I love him. I told him that when he... almost died.
He almost died.
I love him, but I don't know who I am. What I can be for him. I don't know my place anymore. I can't use him to find medals, there are no more medals to find. I can't fight beside him, I am limited by human strength now.
I love him, my love for him wakes me up at night sometimes, with the fierceness of my beating heart. I love him, but there is still this gaping hole inside me.
I've hurt him.